Routine and How i feel

i haven been updating my blog for like 2 weeks already....well all i can say is every single day is always my tiring days cause of work...no entertainment besides watching my downloaded movies....everytime i'm home i take my shower, had my dinner and watch one episode of my tv series or japanese animes...it's like a cycle....alarm 7.30a.m suppose to wake up already but i press snooze when it rang so i always wake up at 7.39a.m but still feel very lazy....then face my laptop for 10 minutes....facebooking..checking emails...check any new episodes to download....but usually its more than 10 minutes....so at 8.05 or 8.10 i will start brushing my teeth, wash my face, morning shower, get dress, went downstairs to take my water bottle, my morning breakfast (which is done from my mum), pray god that everything goes well, locked the door, hit in the car, start the engine, drive 100 km/h, pay tol, stuck in the jam, find parking,reach office about 9.10...sometimes i reach half past nine....what can i do....traffic is unpredictable...today heavy traffic, tomorrow moderate traffic the next day smooth traffic....kinda sick of it especially drivers....finish work at 6, go gym (wed, thurs fri or sat only), reach home take my shower, dinner and watch one episode of my tv series or japanese animes*sorry i have to repeat it again*.....so its like the same routine every single day....that's why i don't have the time to update my blog...sigh...u guys realise i don have any entertainment inside my cycle....because i don't know where to go or what to do or who to call...well i have friends to call but i just don't know what to do....everyone stay in different places and honestly the one staying far apart from others is ME....damn....so inconvenient for me...i wish to move out but i think now is not the right time yet....have to save damn whole lot of money if i wanna do that.... i have this feeling after work i don wanna go home....i wanna hang out with friends, clubbing, drinking u know like try to entertain myself after all this stupid work stuff thingy...tho it makes me busy but its different....

this whole week has been a piss week because of my sister...why can't she understand what i'm trying to do, help her to choose the right way....whenever i say something to her my parents will ask me to shut up especially my mum...LET HER DECIDE WHAT SHE WANTS.....damn....i wish u would say that to me....because i want to decide what i want to do....my sister had failed to do it and im trying to fix it for her...the worst thing is my parents actually approved what shes doing now and reject mine...how weird is that...they think shes right and im wrong....so dissapointed....now she has this THIRD chance to study better....at my time when i did my SECOND time they scold me like hell....but not to my sis.....feeel the unfairness....

my dad expects us to do this and that....well im trying too and at the same time im helping my sis too but looks like they look it in a different way.... last night i realise something...what ever i do i can't feel the appreciation from my parents...on my time they say i waste thier money and time studying....when i fail they yelled at me....when i passed they kept quiet....tho i know that they are happy....yes i can see they love me very much but whats the point of me telling them what i thnk is right and they think is so very wrong....like my best friend say my perception and thiers are totally different so its a little bit hard to communicate....she asked me to put effort on it but i cant do it....i like my own way of doing things but they just keep me from doing it....i'm so tired of all this things....during my studies in Perth i was so worry that i would failed because they pay so much money for me and i appreciate that....welll i done it....pass with good results and graduate there...i wanted to study for another year and due to financial problems whcih i think its not really the main issue my parents just wants me to come back so badly....now that sucks so much....i haven been talking much to my family lately because all of the sudden i feel im an outsider...before i went to Perth i always talk alot, play jokes and spent most of my time with them....but right now i talk less, sometimes i feel they are very noisy and seldom go out with them....people changed you see....some people likes to spend time with family but for me i prefer to make it balance....i seldom hang out with friends because all my time is spent with my family....going out with family or friends is totally a different thing...... now they make me feel that whatever my sis wants to do it they will just let her....so different from my time..i see some of my friends they share thier problems with parents...ha-ha i wish that would happen to me but looks like i can't because i don feel like it and all the things i done they will definitely piss off and worst come to worst they will control me very badly....or maybe ground me....who knows....so they hardly know all my problems....

Honestly the house im staying now is just like a bird cage....like an hour ago...my parents didnt manage to come back home in time to pick my brother for taekwando clasees....so i was told to pick him....and it was raining sunday which is famous of traffic jam thanks to the new flyover they are bulding now here....so it took me almost half and hour to get home plus his taekwando class is at the other town....let me put it this way from my house to that place is like north to south....on the way back it was so freaking jam....when i got home....my dad asked me *angry tone* what took u so long to come back...where did you go....i was like waht the fuk...i answered its because of the traffic jam...i was thinking might as well ask mum to pick him then cause im sure u wont question here why so late....damn it...and if u don like talking to me then don talk....im fine with that...

i was wondering when will my life change.....its getting worst day by day....